This month has been much like most months. Got a new couch, but the old couch still remains in my center room. Malak is doing well, and sometimes better than I am. My niece had a birthday, and from my knowledge – enjoyed it. Keeping HBO Now which is my only premium entertainment, and had to buy speakers and a backpack. The speakers was because my PC speakers are failure, and the backpack because the old one failed.
Nothing special planned for June. Will like to try to get to a cheaper grocery store this coming month. Will be doing much of the same thing. Currently working on South Stations for my ACTA Proposal if anyone is interested. Otherwise – all is quiet.
This month could have been better, but as usual, I make due with or without. Replaced my previous notebook which now functions as a desktop PC with a smaller convertible notebook. I will have to make payments on it which is pretty much my entire life. However, the convertible notebook has proven of value – if it is a bit on the low end.
This month was the first month in more than a couple of decades that I went to a food bank. It is not a matter of pride, but always felt as if there were others that will need it more such as children, or elderly. Even with a food bank, I have to take a bus. It will be on the third Wednesday of the month. I will walk down, and take a bus back. This will be the most efficient means. Continue reading April 2016
This month has been a bit hard and hectic. Having intensive therapy has taken a toll on me, but this month, I seen the end of it. I would like to say it has helped me, but hadn’t notice anything really different. Although, no one can say I didn’t try. This month has also seen the addition of two people with Facebook. One will be one of my sisters, and the other will be someone I knew from when I was an early adult. Both are married and doing well for themselves, so that is good.
I am finding it hard to keep ends met. No inflation my f****n a**! Nonetheless, I am pushing to make due. To help reduce my financial impact, I applied with my bank that I have been with for several years for a debt consolidation loan. Since I am seeking to take a loan to eliminate debt, and reduce my monthly payments, I will assume I will have a better chance. On a brighter note (with a double-edged sword), my student loan has been forgiven. Continue reading March 2016
February could have been a better month. While more people made a bigger deal about my birthday than I did, the month was very little to celebrate about. The anxiety and other issues that has been more commonplace has yet to really subside to any measurable degree. This has reduced the quality of life to say. I have been able to get some content for the ACTA site up, but will likely drop rideacta.com, or the very least redirect it to the current site I have been building on. This is due to financial reasons.
Been pushing to try to make $100 which is what I get in food assistance benefits last 1 month. If this sounds hard, it’s because it is. A double edge sword with regards to my life is that I have been approved for student loan forgiveness. This will mean that within a month, my student loan of $32,000 will be forgiven, and therefore pull me a significant way out of debt. The bad news is that $32,000 will be considered as income for the purpose of state/federal taxes. Assuming for 20% on both taxes, that will be $6,400 in taxes – however my income is around $9,000 per month. This will mean I won’t need tax help, but now need to somehow exempt my loan income from my responsibility for taxes as the taxes will be about 70% of my total income. Will likely contact the PA Attorney Bar to see if there will be anyone that can offer free advise in matters such as this. Continue reading February 2016
This month has been a challenging month. Due to some issues, I have been going to an Intensive Outpatient Therapy 3 times a week for 3 hours a day. It takes about 90 minutes to get there, and another 90 minutes to get back home by bus. This has caused a bit of strain on me, which I am hoping it will eventually make things better.
Also, due to finances and compatibility, I had cancelled Project Fi. For a person that made full use of Google Voice and its features, Project Fi wasn’t supporting my needs. In addition, my bill would have been about $30/month which would have meant more work to compensate. In turn, I had chosen to acquire a dual SIM phone with my Life Line SIM in one slot, and Ting for data in the other. I would have wanted to keep with T-Mobile’s 200MB plan, but they have been causing more problems than it is worth, and the cheapest data only plan would have been $30/month which is still not affordable. Continue reading January 2016
Malak has been doing better, and been dedicating time to him. Will not be getting a COL increase for next year, so I will be relying on the same amount of income with everything else going up. Still miss Talisa, but I take some solace (for what’s it’s worth) that she is getting the care she needs, and she’s happy and healthy.
Been given a new medicine which is supposed to take effect this month, but I don’t feel much in any real positive effects. Will give it some time, and let the doctor know when I see him. Also found out will have to have another ear surgery in a few months. They want to make sure the cyst has been completely removed, and that it isn’t growing back.
Christmas was much like any other day (with no buses). On another note, entering an Intensive Outpatient Program to hopefully help address my discomfort with crowds. The pain had good days, bad days, and very bad days. Will of course post information about any progress in January’s post.
October was bad, and November wasn’t much better. The weather was suitable which allowed me to focus on helping Malak through the grieving process. I on the otherhand will have a harder time to deal with it. People are still asking where’s the other dog which can be infuriating to have to repeat myself. The Pain Psychologist I have been seeing has done as much as she can with helping. She also feels considering that she deals with pain, I will also benefit from another specialty.
Verizon decided to charge more than I can afford, so I ended up going to Comcast. Not something I would have wanted to do as I am not in favor with Comcast, and on the first day, they were screwing things up. And while I liked T-Mobile, I moved services over to Project Fi which is Google’s MVNO. They are about half of the cost, but the conflicts with Google Voice has me somewhat concerned over what hoops I will have to jump through.
All in all, things are much the same. I been tolerating life, and while I know that doesn’t sound too optimistic, it is for my state.
October has been a month of dealing with the consequences of September. Talisa has yet to get her tests, and with 6 weeks of not having the resources to get those tests, I felt it was my responsibility to her to start the surrender process. A couple of people said they were going to help, and I am sure that at least half of them had the best of intentions, but as of the last day of the month, nothing. On the same day I had filled out the surrender documents, there was a call for the Rescue Organization to pick her up. The woman informed me that she will be going in on Monday to get all of the tests she will need, and get the care she will need. In November, the household has decreased by a third.
Verizon wanted to charge me $90 for internet only services. This is completely unaffordable, and with failure to get a price I can afford, I had to sought out Comcast which in the first week of services and even before installation, there was billing problems. Sounds just like the good ole’ days. And yes I feel Verizon is better, but I am sure that most people will feel a Tesla Model S is better than a Yugo, but if you can only afford a Yugo, it doesn’t matter that you prefer the Model S. After the installation, I should be paying about $45 per month which is half of what Verizon wanted to charge. To play Devil’s advocate, Verizon was willing to talk about negotiations when I called to terminate the account. However, at this point it is too late. Continue reading October 2015
First off, if you don’t want to read bad news, then run away. This post is nothing but bad news. September has been nothing but a long string of terrible events that is just plain wrong. I am sure I can find people to point fingers at, but it won’t change the facts at hand. With that being said, I know that this post will be of no value, and will not change facts. At best, it might bring a couple of tears to the one or two people that might read my blog, but if nothing else, I feel I should at least vent, because isn’t that what a personal blog is for?
Obviously, this post is about events that has affected me personally. And while I am not perfect, I am going to do my best to not be judgmental, and just state facts. Also, this post is not an attempt to ask for any hand outs, or even hand-ups. I almost never have help beyond the normal standard stuff that someone in my position and state would otherwise receive, and for that I am appreciative.
Continue reading Bad September!
After a month of consideration (or procrastination), I have decided to look for a specialist that in conjunction with my treatment from my anesthesiologist. I will go into more detail once I find a suitable one. I also went to the dark side and paid a 3 month premium membership with the site Plenty of Fish. One could call it determination or desperation. In either way, I don’t see me renewing in June. I also had my annual physical exam, and with that – I inquired on a referral consultation for the specialist as mentioned.
March brought warmer weather most days. With that, the two got their walks. They were definitely happy as they got little exercise over the Winter. There were a few days I couldn’t take them in the good weather, but I tried nonetheless. Of course, there will be many opportunities from the Spring to the Autumn. If I am really lucky I could get a treadmill that will help them in the Winter time. However, I will also need to consider replacing the sofa bed. If it goes completely – it will not be able to convert from couch to bed. I just hope when this happens, it is not in bed layout.